Do you know this?
You dream something, wake up at night, let your tears out because you think this was real or even - it can become real?

I have to talk to someone now... It would help if someone only would listen/read...

The pictures I have in this Journal show curiously some parts of my dream exactly.
- And I never was so frightened before a dream like this will become true.

The dream:
I was walking with my brother, my grand-aunt and my Dad across a bridge which went above a highway and a flow. You couldn't see the flow beneath exactly but I'm sure there was one. It flowed beside the street.
So we walked across and while we walked my grand-aunt saw a car-accident where people needed help fast. So we did our best to come down the bridge to the highway, but as you know from dreams, the bridge seemed now more higher then at the beginning of the dream. My brother and I were almost at climbimg down when my Dad screamed as loud as he could "HELP! I'M FALLING!", who was hanging BESIDE the bridge only one hand on it, seeming to fall. In this situation I shouted my brother he shall help him cause I wouldn't have enough strength. But my brother understood too late. So I jumbed back onto the bridge, sprinting to Dad and tried to help him. Later my brother got it and tried to help, too.
It seemed my Dad would make it.
But in the next second he slipped of, screamed loud and fell into the river. I only was screaming, too, thought I had him still in my hands - I didn't wait one little second, climbed a little bit down the bridge, which suddenly seemed to be a falsework (my Dad and I feared it would cant over, so he loosed his grip and was falling) - and JUMBED. With my head forward I jumbed afterwards - to Dad.
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On 3:50am I waked up today. [European Time]
And I wanted to cry. If I wasn't that clear I had jumbed out of my bed to look for Dad. But I only tried to sleep one more hour - but I couldn't. The dream had a spell on me. Since now.
I have the feeling, Dad and I were dying in the dream. Because I waked up after I was falling.

Why the dream makes me that dizzy, disarranged and frightened?
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I have 5 friends whose Dads (or Moms) all died in the last 2 years. I could be the next and you will never know what will happen in future. Death can be there so fast even you don't think about it.
So I only can say - don't play with lives - and be thankful for every day you can spend with the people you love and who like you, too.


Today's morning before I went to work I was waiting for Dad only I was able to tell him he shall be very carefully... - And to be sure I can see him once again...


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